SO this month was the worst month ever pretty much.
I pretty much have only two friends left in my hometown.
The first I considered my best friend until I found out this month that he signed up for the Air Force without even telling me. The second managed to get herself pregnant. Then we had Thanksgiving dinner with her family, and right after we finished, my dog Sophie started howling in pain. About forty seconds later, she died in front of my eyes.
And now I just don't give enough of a damn about my schoolwork to do the 7 homework assignments and 7 exams I have to do in the next 15 days.
I'm not depressed. I am only misenthropic, and, more predominantly, stern. I feel like nothing can surprise me now. I've seen it all. Nothing can make me happy or sad. Nothing can brighten or darken my general attitude. I'm just stern, and cold.
I understand you completely. Life can be harsh and I just thing that sometimes the meaning is survival. What I like to do is imagine that I'm looking in one way glass where I can see them, but they can't see me. Also, when I read about bad things happening I pretend that people are just primitive apes that need to studied(by people like Jane Goodall) in order to understand them and their needs.
ReplyDeleteAnd it seems like society gets dumber by generation so hang on. Lol
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